Life Right Now 3/17/20

It's the second day of the shutdown due to COVID-19 and I am going insane. The day they announced that the school will be shutting down I didn't show up to school that day so I did't really get to hang out with my friends for the last time. I miss my friends a lot. I was able to face time a few of them but I rather see them in person. I miss waking up and getting ready in the morning. I miss driving to school. I miss hanging out in Coutts's classroom with Jenny and others who decide to come before school. I miss going to zero and enjoying the company of my Link Crew group. I miss every single one of my classes and all my teachers. I miss the senior year I wanted. I remember the first semester of this school year I thought "finally a perfect school year" I love all my classes and the atmosphere in each one. I was excited to end my high school year creating so many new memories and now I won't be able to make those memories. Today was suppose to be the day we go to Six Flags for the Physics field trip. I wasn't suppose to go because I'm just the T.A but he was going to let me sneak on the bus. I just needed my mom to excuse me for the whole day. I manage to convince my mom and pay for my ticket. I was ready to add on to my senior year memories. And now I just got news that schools might be closed till the end of the school year. Right now I don't feel anything. I'm not mad and I'm not happy. Maybe I'm in denial. But I hate that if it is true then I never got a proper ending to my high school story. I understand there is a bigger problem at hand but I just want to feel selfish for one minute but after I'll continue to do my work. I just wanted one thing to go smoothly in my life but that's too much to ask for. Right now I'm just going to drown in the mountains of school work I have.