An Upgrade

I remember when I was younger I would be pretty social, I remember making friends easily at park or beach. I was able to befriend any kid that my mom presented me because they were the child of her friend. For some reason it seemed pretty easy back then. What happen? I remember in 2nd grade I was presenting something and a group of boys were laughing in the back. At the time I thought they were laughing at me. But were they really? As I continue to grow I realize the incident wasn't the root of my shyness, and till this day I still don't know what is. 5th grade I had to move to a new school. From my very small community at San Antonio Christian School to the larger community of Bear Gulch Elementary I felt uncomfortable. The first day I sat alone at the bench watching others play, unable to speak to anyone. I remember crying that first week because I missed my old friends. I did manage to make friends and enjoyed my year there but then middle school came, which meant more people. Of course with my luck I didn't get any classes with my friends. Middle school I was pretty shy, I remember being so quite you'll be lucky to hear a peep out of me. But of course if you were friends with me I was the exact opposite. Saying anything out loud was the scariest thing in my life. Presentations made me so anxious I could throw up. I never wanted to do things like Avid or ASB in middle school knowing that it involves an interview.

But for some reason it sophomore year of high school that broke this curse. Despite being drained academically that year it was my social highlight. I remember making new friends in each of my classes. And would actually talk in class, of course it wasn't always academic but I still talked. I remember trying out for Link Crew and doing being pretty good in the interview portion and I ended up making it. My shyness started to shrink as I grew, I still get a little nervous when I have to present or answer a question out loud. But I made many new friends and created many fun memories from leaving my shell. I'm not an extrovert but I manage to leave the introvert behind sometimes. And it's a great feeling.